Smoking for three years is not much history. I've been smoking since 1967 and have noted no major changes in my life other than having a lot more insight into other people's minds, a much calmer attitude, and a sense of humor that sticks around through all kinds of adversity. Those things might be attributable to age and experience but they seem pot-related to me. I think the greatest thing about being a pot smoker is the friends I've had over the years. They've been funny, compassionate, and the least judgmental people I've ever met. I don't know if imaginative people become long-term smokers or long-term smokers have a less rigid hold on consensual reality. Either way, they are much more into speculative flights of fantasy than "normal" people. Different strokes for different folks. I'm sorry my muse didn't work for you. I wish you all the luck with your new life. It's good to have direction. It sounds like pot got in the way of yours.